Life has dealt me some strange cards recently. The girl I fell in love with so long ago has taken herself out of my life and decided to do things her way. Understandably for a while this drove me a tiny bit bonkers. I still love her but we are unable to share that together for the moment.
Chrissy's departure and all the stress that it has caused has allowed me to take a step back from my life and to wonder what it was that I was doing. As you might know, I've been involved in technology and programming for as long as I was married to my Chrissy. It was she that encouraged me to think outside of my own limitations and persuaded me that to go for a job that was apparently beyond my skills was a viable possibility.
So, for thirty two years I have struggled with the world to try and provide a living for a growing family. The path that I walked was one of constantly growing stress with a need for more money, more stuff, cars, clothes and shoes, shopping trolleys full of groceries and bottles of wine and cans of beer.
Chrissy has gone to live with a past that she seems unable to reconcile as being over and forgotten. I intend to go and live in the undiscovered country of the future.
Today is my last day as a technology freak and hunter of cash or chaser of other people's problems. Today is the final effort that I will make on the path of my "career" because I no longer have a reason for struggling along that path with the rain and sleet beating against my face. Today I turn my back to the winds of fate and will allow them to push me along rather than fight against them all the way.
This is my last day of the past and the first day of my future. Maybe you'll find that this blog becomes more interesting in the next little while. It is unlikely to be about computers or anything based on technology but you might find it interesting.
Have a good day today and remember that tomorrow hasn't happened yet.
6 comments:
I wish you well on your journey brother. Try not to be too fatalistic though.
Good luck Bob, this is what I wanted to say to you before you were gone. It was a pleasure knowing you and getting to share a bit of your knowledge. Wish you best of luck wherever your steps may take you. Laurentiu
Rest in Peace Bob, It was a pleasure knowing you. Your Genius shines through in your blog. I hope your blog will remain as a legacy and a place for those who knew you can go, when we remember you. Deardriu
I'm very much touched. I just wanted to say good luck Bob. Vincent Labatut
Sadly Bob is no longer with us
Life brings hard times which not all of us can cope with
I am not sure how I was lucky enough to stumble upon this post but how very beautiful and poetic it is when we realize the life we are living isn't life at all- and that at that moment of realization is exactly when life becomes so real and vibrant. I am wishing this man well, and will repeat what my father told me many failures ago:
a setback, is a set up.....for a comeback.
I hope Bob, that your comeback was/is everything that makes you happy, at peace, fulfilled and without the cumbersome strains of todays lost and wayward society...
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